Loves Obsession

Without you, I am not myself.

Please stay.

Sibby x

 

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The Empathetic Cat

Who am I kidding. Cats do not have empathy. They are patient hunters. They will wait for you to die and then.. They will eat you. Hell. I would eat you if I was trapped in a house with no food and no escape. It’s called survival.

I just googled – ‘cats eating dead owner’ and I came across a website containing graphic images of a half eaten body. Want to see it? http://www.documentingreality.com/forum/f10/cats-eat-dead-owner-51638/

Yesterday I found myself in a traffic jam. I’m half hanging out the window of my little black Rio yelling, “mother fuckers” at the traffic as we hurtled forward in first gear.

Ten minutes later and approaching the end, the cause of the delay became clear. A car accident.

My Thought Process.

At first I was annoyed because there is nothing more annoying than someone getting into a vehicle collision and causing an inconvenience to everyone else who has some place to be.

And then..

I felt sympathetic towards who ever was involved [in the vehicle collision]. My trip may have taken me that extra ten minutes but today is one of the worst days of someone’s life.

Suddenly, I didn’t feel so mad.

Sibby x

The “Time Filler”

“Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it’s broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother fucker’s reflection.” – Lady Gaga

Scenario – You and a friend plan to hang out. Then you get a text stating plans have changed and that your hang out time is now limited because they’ve made OTHER plans to chill with someone else.

Limited hangout time?

Ok. I will admit. I got a bit jealous and pretty much just cancelled the whole thing but you know what, I think I made a fair call.

This is the easiest way I can describe it.

“Hey, I’ve got a spare two hours before I meet someone else. I’m not doing anything if you still want to catch up.”

Translated..

“Hey, you know that catch up. Well, I’m kinda meeting someone else but I’ve got a bit of time for you if you still wanna hang.”

Do you see where I’m going with this?

Our plans have now taken a dive into the back seat of a dirty old bomb that’s been sitting there and rusting for forever in an overgrown field of wheat.

So, now I question the status of our friendship. I thought we were pretty good friends when in actual fact I’m just there until someone else better, more interesting or potential for sex comes along.

I will also admit that I was cut. I was cut pretty deep.

I’ll try to not take it personally but..

In reality, I made it personal and then redirected all calls to my voice mail box that doesn’t exist to avoid any more disappointment.

Today I Realised..

That friendship means nothing to some people and that it sucks the big one.

I need to disconnect. Sad but true.

Sibby.

Daydreaming While Driving Cars Is Never A Good Idea

Today I realised.. That inside my chest there is a heart.

And it fucking hurts and these tears, they will dry inside my eyes before I let them escape down my face.

Scenario – Your life put into words and verbally expressed to you out aloud and it sounds exactly like that little voice inside your head that’s been telling you what the right thing to do is.

Decisions? Decisions.

Some decisions require serious consideration OR I could shoot myself in the head.

What it all comes down to..

I miss my best friend.

I miss you hard and it hurts.

Dead people don’t have feelings. I’m not dead. Sad but true.

Sibby x