I’m going to miss my ‘stories’. Judge Judy is on in an hour and there is still no clear indication of when the electricity will be back. I have been productive though. I took myself out to lunch at Toto Vietnamese in Victoria Park and then I spent an hour in Crow Books bookshop and found this little gem.

It’s a graphic novel called ‘The Kurosagi Corpse‘. It came in plastic wrap and intrigued me enough to just buy it on the spot, right there and then, feeding my compulsive hands. Usually I’d have a good flick through to get a gist of what it’s all about but like I said, plastic wrap and opportunity didn’t present itself. Translated from Japanese and described as an “intensely disturbing one-volume story”. It should be good.

Respect.

We don’t get it enough and we certainly don’t give enough of it. I personally feel as though that I give too much of it. Whilst driving, I always try to be courteous let the guy into the lane I’m in, I buy my friends coffee when we catch up, I’m genuinely grateful and I always (for the most part) mind my p’s and q’s.

Lately, I haven’t been so friendly. Maybe I let my ego get the better of me or maybe I’m just sick of the bullshit. I think it’s the latter that describes how I feel the best.

Why should I have to say ‘hello’ first? I can see what the other person is thinking. “Oh, there’s Sibus. She has this big underlining issue with me. Actually I even think she doesn’t like me.” What I’m really thinking is, “You look busy or you’re talking to someone or you’re doing something. I don’t want to interrupt.”

Social gatherings are interesting too. Especially with girls. I went to a gathering thing a few weeks back and I walked up to this girl and said, “Hey, how are you?” In a jovial tone, I was smiling. She pretty much just ignored me and dragged a chair up to a group of other girls (mutual friends) that we were sitting with. It’s not like we didn’t know each other either. I see her at least a couple times a week and we chat. I didn’t think much of it and a week after the fact, I saw her and she came up to me and started talking.

Social situations can be tough to navigate. I’ve noticed that some people get this elitist “I’m better than you” attitude and it’s sad, really. I’ve had a few friends say to me, on separate occasions in their own words, “I just want to quit. I don’t feel like I fit in.”

I don’t have time to talk smack or worry about the things that don’t concern me. I have my own shit going on. It’s time to re-focus, stop worrying about the person next to you and get some goals, yo! GET_SOME_GOALS.

OMG.. Hahahahaha! I’m sitting here, typing away in the dark and thinking that the power still was disconnected when Chups walks in and turns on the light.

It’s TV time. Don’t hate.

Sibus x